24 November


Christmas shopping and Buzz’s new piano

You might recall that four weeks ago we were referred to a physio to make sure that Buzz’s flat head (something that is very common thanks to the guidelines that babies sleep on their backs) was not a cause for concern. Thankfully it wasn’t, but we were relieved to have it checked out by a professional. This week we returned to Physio Gill to see how Buzz is developing. She was extremely impressed with his crawling and sitting… I felt like a very proud mummy! Now that he’s moving around a lot more, and hardly ever flat on his back, his head has really started to round out. The only thing we’re keeping an eye on now are his feet – he likes to go up on his tiptoes a lot when we hold him in a standing position. I’m sure it’s nothing to worry about at all – but we’ll be helping Buzz keep his feet firmly on the ground before going back to Gill in six weeks.

Following that appointment we took Buzz into town for a family day out… he happily sat through two meetings, two restaurant trips and some late night shopping without even a whimper! What a star! And yes… we’ve finally started our Christmas shopping! Not long to go people.




Also this week…

· I’ve discovered Pinterest! I’ve had it for a while, but never really understood it… I still don’t understand it, but am loving pinning lots of pretty/ inspirational images and quotes. It’s great fun! Following this discovery, my friend Joe pointed me towards Etsy… Oh gosh, I can tell I’m going to spend so much time and money on there. It’s a den of hidden treasures.

· Tickets to my first ever book event went on sale AND sold out! I’ll be having a little Q&A/signing at Covent Garden’s Waterstones on December 10th. It’s a ticketed event – which is great as it means I’m guaranteed some guests… Can you imagine if I did something like that and no one turned up? I’d be so embarrassed!

· I’m a Celebrity… Get Me Out Of Here is back and I’m in reality TV heaven! Yep, I’m a huge fan of the show and genuinely get excited about it every year. So far I’m LOVING Kendra and Jimmy. I used to watch Girls of the Playboy Mansion and was a huge fan of Kendra back then as she’s nothing like what you’d expect from one of Hefner’s ladies – it’s nice to see she’s exactly the same on this show too. I had no idea who Jimmy was at first, but he’s had me in stitches since day one. I love all the adventure in camp – it’s definitely one show I think I’d enjoy doing myself… although do you get out of the eating challenges if you’re a veggie? I’d hope so!

· Buzz got sent the most adorable tiny piano from Korg! Tom was trying to tell me that there was a chance Buzz would sit down and bash out a symphony of some kind – well, it’s just a collection of notes – but I’m pretty sure the tune Buzz created wasn’t like anything I’ve heard before on Classic FM. Still, he’s highly enthusiastic with his bashing.


· We took a group trip to the cinema to see Interstellar… I really enjoyed it… although (I’ll be totally honest), I was a bit baffled when it finished. In fact, a few of us turned to each other and said, ‘I THINK I get it’… which is possibly not the best reaction to be left with. BUT, I did thoroughly enjoy it. I think it’s one you have to roll with and not think about TOO much, otherwise your head might implode. Yep… that’s a scientific fact.


Right, I’m off to try and not think about Interstellar!

Big Love,

Gi. Xx

17 November


Buzz Becomes The Fastest Crawler Who Ever Lived…

Okay, I might be slightly exaggerating with that title, but our cheeky little monkey has been flying across the room with the biggest grin on his face this week. He’s loving exploring and wants to touch everything that he can put his hands on. It’s amazing to witness him loving life, but it’s also a little bit terrifying! Everything in sight has become a potential hazard waiting to happen… Let the baby proofing commence!

With that in mind, it won’t come as much of a shock that we’ve visited the idea of a playpen. I’ll be honest, I was in two minds about putting Buzz in something that resembled a cage, but seeing as he can dart across the room very quickly now (making doing anything impossible) I thought it was worth having a little Google. After all, Christmas is just around the corner and they’ll be lots of shining things around that he’ll want to put in his mouth… and a Christmas tree for him to pull down. So, on my search to find something that wasn’t oppressive, boring and depressing, I came across the TikkTokk range. Made for nurseries (yes, I know… I went big and bold), the colourful plastic is fun, strong and extendable. So I bought to kiddykare pen and an extension pack to make Buzz’s play area as huge as possible. It’s so flipping easy to put up that it really is possible to just get it out when needed.



Also this week…

We’ve been sick! So sick! Last week I mentioned how Buzz had been vomiting over the weekend and that the doctor had said it was due to teething…. However, I think the fact that me, my mum and brother Mario have all graced our toilets with our heads this week would suggest otherwise. All I could think was ‘poor little bubba’ at the thought of little Buzz going through the same thing. I can’t lie – I’m pretty glad that week is behind us!



But in better news… WE’VE ORDERED A DISHWASHER! I agree, mundane info that you probably don’t want/need to know… but it makes me so happy to know we’re finally on the way to replacing our old dishwasher that broke several months ago. Three cheers for the new dishwasher that’s on its way – hip hip, hooray, hip hip, hooray, hip hip… HOORAY!

Yep. Other bloggers give you updates on their glitzy outfits to snazzy celeb-filled events – I tell you about kitchen appliances we’ve ordered. I lead a riveting life sometimes.

Thanks for sticking with me and reading this blog each week. Your support and kindness really is wonderful.

Big love!

Gi. Xxx

10 November


Christmas, my novella and a babyshower!

When looking back at the last week the two images that spring to mind instantly are me typing away at my computer getting started on book three and then being sat at my desk hidden under a pile of receipts as I worked on my tax return. Yeah, riveting stuff! But, actually, there have been some gems this week too…

Christmas With Billy and Me has been published! Hurrah. It’s always lovely to have feedback on something that you’ve put a lot of time, effort, energy and love into… So I’ve loved hearing from everyone this week as they’ve downloaded my little novella (or gone into Waterstones – it’s physically exclusive to them). Plus, in further book news, it was announced this week that Billy and Me is being translated into Portuguese for Brazil (published 10th December). How flipping awesome is that?! That’s now four countries the book has officially reached (UK, Italy, Germany and Brazil), I wonder where else my creations will travel!

I got into the Christmas spirit early this year thanks to writing my novella, but now Christmas has really arrived in the Fletcher household. Okay, not really, but yes really. Ha! We have a deal in our house that Tom’s allowed to play Christmas songs once Halloween and bonfire night are out of the way. So Thursday morning I was woken up to Michael Bublé crooning out some festive greats… I’m not complaining! There are far worse things to be woken up to. Ooh, and let’s not forget the arrival of the John Lewis Christmas ad… how emotional was that?! Yet again JL have come up with a corker. Although it’s no surprise as to who cried over it the most in our house. Tom. Obviously.


Also this week, I threw a surprise babyshower! Cath (mummy to Martha who featured in last week’s blog) is ready to pop, so us friends decided to shower her with love and cake before she welcomes hers new bundle. I’ll be honest, I was hoping that she’d go into labour and I’d have to make a mad dash to get the hot towels before delivering new baby Last, but sadly that didn’t happen. But what DID happen was that we all had a lovely time and ate lots and lots of cake! Most of Cath’s family came down from Liverpool for the afternoon too – something that really shocked her!


The night before the babyshower was quite eventful though… After spending the night with Tom, Katy and Charlie baking cakes (we made a rainbow cake – it was delicious) and blowing up dozens of balloons – we walked into Buzz’s room to find him totally covered in vomit. He then was sick throughout the night and had to see the doctor the following day. Luckily it wasn’t an infection – the doctor couldn’t be sure, but thought it might be connected to teething. Poor thing. So, while we were all eating cake downstairs at the babyshower, Buzz and Tom stayed upstairs and chilled out for the afternoon. Apparently he slept for most of it – which isn’t surprising as he was up the majority of the previous night. I’d have to say the worst part of him being sick was the look of fear in his eyes when it was about to occur or while it was happening. He didn’t understand and was so scared. He’s totally fine now though. I think all the sleep did him good.


Right, off to give the little dude a big cuddle!

Big love,
Gi. Xx

03 November


A Very Happy Week for the Falcone/Fletchers

The most wonderful thing occurred this week… I’ve gained an almost-brother-in-law. Well, I saw him as ‘almost’ before this weekend, so maybe he should now be called my really-almost-brother-in-law. Yes, that wonderful Lee (aka Chickpea) has made my sister Giorgina the happiest girl ever by asking her to marry him. Like most little sisters I’ve idolised my big sister throughout the years and always felt disheartened for her when her boyfriends turned into Mr Wrong – but now she’s found her Mr Right, something we were all sure of from the moment we met Lee. It was love at first sight for all the family, so we’re thrilled that he’s now going to officially be a part of our family’s circle of trust and love. So… I’d like to say a huge congratulations to my big sister Giorgina and Chickpea on their engagement!


I’ve known it was going to happen for a few weeks, and have been on the verge of happy tears every time I’ve thought about it, but seeing her beaming face as she proudly showed off her new bit of bling this weekend (Chickpea did a wonderful job – it’s a gorgeous sparkler) is up there with one of my favourite moments ever. I can’t wait to weep through all her bridal dress shopping trips, like she did during mine. Happy times ahead!! That also means that I’ll be bridesmaid at THREE weddings next year! 2015 really is set to be filled with love, laughter and merriment.


This week Tom’s been away with the McBusted boys and Nanny Fletcher had a nasty cold, so Buzz and I have had lots of time hanging out. We’ve also had a trip to see Emma and the Willis munchkins, to my lovely friend Katy’s for cake and a visit from Mario. I must say, I might’ve got no work done (at all) but it’s been flipping brilliant just having quality time together. I’m going to take a week off more often… I’d better just make sure my writing time is as productive as possible when I do work!


When Tom was finally back from his tour we had a little day visitor in the form of little Martha – our friends’ three year old girl. It was a great insight into what life will be like when we eventually add to our brood. Yep, it’ll be beautifully chaotic. Ha! Martha was a delight and made our Saturday highly entertaining, although we were shattered when her mummy Cath came to collect her!


BBC Children in Need asked me to get involved in their campaign to get people baking in a bid to raise lots of money for their good deeds. I decided to make a vegan carrot cake as Tom’s been unable to eat a lot of cakes lately as they contain butter, cream, milk or eggs… I’ll be honest, I was really worried what my concoction was going to turn out like, but it was one of the best carrot cakes I’ve ever made. Phew! Visit the BBCCiN website to learn more about how you can get involved. http://bbc.co.uk/Pudsey


So all in all it was a fantastic week for us Fletchers! Hope yours was fab too! I have an exciting week ahead as Christmas With Billy and Me will be available in Waterstones and on eBook devices. It’s always great to know that something I’ve dreamt up is about to read by others… although, I can’t help but feel a little nervous too! Fingers crossed everyone enjoys where I’ve taken the story over the festive period.

Big love,

Gi. Xx

27 October


One Anniversary, One Flat Head and One Cheeky Announcement…

This week Tom and I celebrated our 11 year anniversary of being a couple! I know we should probably stop celebrating this one now that we’re married – but it’s always nice to have an excuse to go out and have a date night, isn’t it?! Plus, eleven years!!! So, this year Tom took me to a gorgeous vegetarian restaurant in Holborn called Vanilla Black … Oh my gosh, the food was amazingly delicious. It was great going somewhere that I could eat everything on the menu. I think people think all vegetarians eat is a lump of boring vegetables at every meal, but this restaurant proves how creative veggie dishes can be – and how moreish, pretty and naughty, too! Munching on fab food with a glass of bubbly with the hubby – a perfect way to celebrate how far we’ve come.



My novella (that’s short story to you and me) Christmas with Billy and Me is set to be published November 6th. Originally it was going to be an ebook exclusive, however those lovely folk at Waterstones asked ever so nicely to have the exclusive physical format. So now it’ll be available in eBook and also physical! Hurrah. Two copies unexpectedly arrived the post this week and I’m thrilled to say they look amazing! I can’t wait to see them in stores (I think they’ll be at the till points) in ten days time. THAT’S SO SOON!


Remember I mentioned a little while ago about Buzz’s flat head? Well it’s nowhere near as bad as it was, but our doctor referred us to a physiotherapist just to check everything was okay. We met a lovely lady who gave Buzz lots of toys to play with while she checked out his development. The main thing she noted was that he wasn’t sitting up… But not because of anything sinister – he was just too laidback to bother. She helped him find a strong base to balance on, and he’s basically spent hours sitting in that position ever since. Turns out he just needed to be shown that it required far less effort than he was using to hoist his toys above his head when rolling around the floor with them. Now he has both hands free to play and explore… And reading is much easier when you have two hands to bash a book with!


Another week, another birthday – although this time it was the turn of my wonderful sister-in-law Carrie to blow out those birthday candles whilst saying ‘hello’ to a new chapter of her life. I’ve known Carrie since she was a little girl and I’m so proud to see the gorgeous woman she’s become…

Right, Tom is off on a radio tour with the McBusted boys this week (rather excitingly they announced they’re releasing an album on the first of December) so I’d better go get him organised.



As ever, thanks for all the comments on here and Twitter – I love hearing your views on my ramblings!

Big love to you all!
Giovanna. Xx

20 October


Crawling, Cake and Fancy Dress

As the title suggests, Buzz is crawling! For weeks he has been toying with the idea (before shuffling backwards in a diagonal direction), but this week he’s officially become a crawler. Yes, yes, yes… I know what you’re all going to say – time to get baby proofing. If anyone has any recommendations on products they’ve used or just general advice, please leave a comment or tweet me. I’d love to hear the thoughts of others who’ve moved onto this stage of their baby’s development. It’s a tough balance between letting them free so that they can explore the world (living room) and containing them to keep them safe from all the hazards in the room, but we’ll get there! Needless to say the highlight of my week was coming downstairs one morning and having Buzz crawl over to me with a massive grin on his face. What a way to start the day!

It’s been a few weeks since the McWags got together for a little chinwag, so we decided to all head to Café Royal for tea and cake (aka afternoon tea). Firstly, I was worried that in my new world as a vegetarian I’d be left with just egg and cucumber sandwiches – but Café Royal REALLY puts on a great spread no matter your dietary requirements. Our group consisted of two vegetarians, two gluten free ladies and two ‘normal’ eaters (we’re a fussy bunch) and ALL of us were full to the brim with satisfying deliciousness by the time we left. I certainly hope there are more girlie afternoon teas put in the diary soon – it’s always wonderful to spend time with those fab ladies!


This week brought with it birthday celebrations for three beautiful ladies – my cousin Sam, niece Isla and primary school friend Sarah. I met my friend Sarah when we were both nine years old. I can remember being sat in my new school and seeing her goofily smile at me across the room. She won me over instantly and is my oldest friend… well, my oldest serving one, but I like to freak her out by calling her my oldest. Anyway, it was Sarah’s 30th this week and to celebrate she held a ‘S’ themed fancy dress party. After much deliberation I decided to go as The Snowman. I’ve never been so comfortable at a party before… it was like going in my PJs!


Onto Sam and Isla’s birthday party and Buzz played pass the parcel for the first time. He couldn’t keep his eyes off the parcel as it went around the circle. It was so adorable. The wrapping paper kept him entertained for hours afterwards too, as though it was the most interesting, complex and desirable thing ever… that’s his Christmas present sorted, then!

Also this week, I was sent the luxurious Sydney Pacapod changing bag to try out… I LOVE being organised so you can imagine how excited I got packing the separate compartments of this bag – there’s a pod for changing bits and bobs, one for Buzz’s lunch and snacks, a compartment for spare clothes/toys/muslins and then a whole section just for ME! Plus, this HAS to be the least ‘mumsy’ item I’ve acquired since being a mummy – it looks so blooming stylish. Yeah, okay, I’m totally fan-girling over a bag. Ha!


Right, I’ll see you all next week… I’m off to pack my Pacapod for Buzz’s trip to his Nanny Fletcher’s tomorrow. Fun times!

Big love,

Gi. Xx

13 October


Buzz Joined his Daddy and McBusted on Set

McBusted’s first ever single Air Guitar was revealed to the world this week when they shared its lyric video after teasing fans with fifteen second snippets of it first. I’m not too surprised that it’s has such a positive reaction – I’ve been unable to stop singing it since I first heard it. The lyrics are so funny and perfectly encapsulate everything that the McBusted boys are about. I have a feeling the year ahead is going to be pretty epic and luckily you guys will get to see this McWag’s take on the whole thing… well, THAT and how I’m juggling mummyhood and writing at the same time. Oh, life is for living and squeezing in everything you can. No point sitting around doing nothing when there’s so much fun to be had.   ;-)


Tom and the boys filmed Air Guitar’s music video this week at Leavesden Studios. Seeing as it’s not too far away from our house, me, my brother Mario and Buzz decided to take a little drive and see Daddy at work. Buzz (wearing his ear defenders) was fascinated by all the flashing lights and seeing the McBusted boys energetically jumping around. As ever, it was lovely watching the boys fuss over Buzz – I know Tom loves it when he’s there… he tries to get him doing all his adorable ‘tricks’ – laughing, rolling and crawling attempts. However, Buzz is no performing monkey and usually just looks at us both as though we’re mad.


Also this week…

· Me and Mrs Georgia Jones (it’s still so much fun to use her NEW full name) were invited along to Little Black Dress’ launch for their very own collection of little black dresses. A night out with my girlie, sipping champers and looking at fab dresses – I could hardly refuse. Team LBD have been amazing with me over the last couple of years and have helped me find most of my dresses for TV appearances, premieres and weddings. So it was lovely to go along and meet the team who work their magic via their website and hear more about them and their latest venture. I’ve no doubt I’ll be rocking a dress from their new collection VERY soon. Check them all out at www.littleblackdress.co.uk.


· Tom and I stumbled across Lola’s cupcakes a couple of weeks ago – we were so excited by their vegan recipe that I couldn’t help but blog and vlog about them. As a thank you for featuring them they sent us a collection of cupcakes… six vegan for Tom and a dozen of their standard cupcakes of yumminess for me… They were so flipping delicious I feel I have to mentioned them again! Thank you for your thank you Lola’s!


· Jennifer Garner became my idol this week! I’m sure we’re all aware of the pregnancy rumours that circulate about her every other week when photos emerge of her with a ‘bump’. Speaking on the Ellen Show, she said, ‘I am not pregnant but I have had three kids and there is a bump. From now on ladies, I will have a bump. It will be my baby bump and let’s all just settle in and get used to it. It’s not going anywhere. I have a bump – it’s name is Violet, Sam, Sera’. Well, I think she’s gone a long way to addressing those rumours once and for all while giving every mummy out there a little high five in the process. Wonderful.


Have a lovely week guys!

Big love,


06 October


The Weight Rant… Grrr!

I’ve been a bit bemused by the slanging match happening this week over women gaining too much or too little weight whilst pregnant. Actually, I was particularly mortified when one journalist wrote that women are using pregnancy as an EXCUSE to become obese. Really?! I’m so fed up with women attacking each other over their blooming weight. I don’t understand why people feel they need to ‘fight dirty’ on the topic and target specific women in the public eye who they think ate a cake or three too many during their pregnancies – or didn’t eat enough. What happened to girl power? Women standing together united as a force to be reckoned with?! Have we really turned our backs on that just to poke each other’s wobbly bits?! Even when doing the most natural thing in the world and carrying a child for nine months? Jeeeeez…

I feel strongly that individual women should do what they feel is right for them and their unborn child and not be made to feel like they’re being judged with every tiny decision made – let’s not forget that the judgment of mummyhood is looming, and that’s one tough cookie to cope with.

We live in a society where we know all about nutrition. We know what foods are good for us and not. We’re all able to make informed decisions. I don’t think anyone seriously thinks they can eat solely cake for nine months during pregnancy and I don’t believe anyone would contemplate eating badly for the whole duration just because they have an ‘excuse’… and I’m a woman who loves cake. Honestly… cake, cake, cake. I love a bit of cake.

Yes, it is a little concerning when someone piles on several stone in a short amount of time, but I feel it’s equally as worrying when women actively try and put on as little weight as possible. Is either outcome really something to boast about over the arrival of your offspring? It’s not a game to see how much or how little weight you can gain!

As someone who’d struggled to feel good in her body before pregnancy, I can honestly say that I’ve never felt sexier and more womanly than when I was with child. I respected my body more than I ever had before because it was doing the most amazing job and creating a life.

Don’t add stress to a time that should be filled with excitement, love and wonderment. Don’t let something as ugly as vanity cloud over something so beautiful.

Eat well. Get the right nutrients. Stay happy. And stay away from those flipping bathroom scales!

Right, time to get off my soapbox… but weight related slanging matches really get my goat… FYI!

Also this week…

· My editor sent back Christmas With Billy and Me with some notes attached, so I’ve been back in my office tweaking it… another excuse to listen to Christmas songs again. I’m really looking forward to readers seeing what Sophie and Billy are up to next… Although I’m not going to write anymore here in case I say too much. BUT! It fills me with happiness and makes me cry when I read it. HA!

· Buzz seems to be on the verge of crawling. He now lifts his whole body up when playing on his tummy and has clear intentions of going towards whatever we’ve placed in front of him (especially if it’s a cat walking by). He occasionally picks himself up and throws himself forward, but he mostly shuffles himself sideways or backwards (much to his annoyance). Crawling isn’t far away though – so it’s time to go baby gate shopping and making those stairs safe! He’ll be climbing them before we know it.
· We’ve started having early morning walks as a family. It’s lovely walking around the local lakes with a cup of coffee and actually finding time to talk to one another. Life has been getting extremely busy, so it’s wonderful to catch up and squeeze in some quality time. We did have a rather yucky moment though when we wheeled the pram through some dog muck… All part and parcel of being out in the big outdoors, I guess. I’ll certainly be keeping a closer eye on the path ahead in future!giovanna-1
· We were sent a Greentom Upp to try – the world’s first 100% recycled pushchair. Being vegan (Tom)/veggie (me – although I do try to cut out dairy where possible) it’s quite fitting for us to have been sent a stroller that’s a little kinder to the planet. Stronger than metal, the Greentom Upp frame is made from 5.6kg of recycled and biobased materials and, quite amazingly, the fabric seat is made of 62 recycled soft drink bottles! That’s bonkers. So not only is it light and easy to use, but you can feel smug that you’re helping find a home for just a few of those bottles, rather than having them join the billions of others filling up landfills around the world.

· But the highlight of this week was hearing that my gorgeous friend Savannah got engaged to her lovely partner Nate. I’m so thrilled for them both – and I’ve even been asked to be bridesmaid! Yay! I’ve never been a bridesmaid before but next year I have that honour twice and only a couple of months apart. Once for Sav and then for my lovely Lauren. What a gorgeous year 2015 is shaping up to be.

Big love to you all… and remember – stop poking those wobbly bits!

Gi. Xx

29 September


The Dreaded Post-pregnancy drama… Hair loss!

I’ve heard many women talk about losing their hair after giving birth – I think it’s something to do with your body holding on to a lot of it whilst pregnant (don’t ask my why), and then the change of hormones releasing a bunch once the baby has arrived…. Something like that. Anyway, the point is I was aware that it could happen and was on red alert.

With that in mind, I was obviously conscious of the dozens of strands that fell from my scalp whilst in the shower and washing my hair, but I didn’t really think much of it. I’m sure everyone notices hair falling out when they’re brushing conditioner through it. In fact, I thought I was doing a fairly good job at keeping most of my barnet. It’s only now that I’m noticing baby hairs coming through on my bald patches on my hairline that I’ve really started realising how much I’d lost. Tom tells me I’m seeing things, but I think he’s just being polite – I can see those empty triangles of scalp when I tie my hair back! Aaaah! What a fabulous look… But, as ever, it’s just another little negative that’s far outweighed by the positives of having Buzz. Who cares if you lose your hair, gain a sodding load of weight and add a few stretch marks to your body when you’ve got a gorgeous little bubba showing you unconditional love each day?! I certainly don’t.

Also this week…

· Buzz has discovered a new sound. It’s basically a mix between a vocalised cough and a fake laugh – but he does it repeatedly, so it sounds more like a toy machine gun.

· I fist pumped the air while I pressed send on an email to my editor, which had the first draft of Christmas With Billy and Me attached. It’s been a new type of challenge writing with a baby around, but I’m so glad I started with a novella rather than a novel. Moving forward I know exactly how the next few months are going to work as I get underway with book three, and that fills me with lots of confidence.

· As a reward for getting my first draft in I took myself off to Aden and Anais’ launch for their new merino wool range – a collaboration they’ve embarked on with Woolmark. There are essentially four pieces in the range (although available in different colours) – a cute little comforter, a beautiful swaddle blanket, a gorgeous sleeping bag and a super-duper snuggly blanket. Honestly, nevermind the baby – I want one of those bad boys for myself. They’re perfect for those winter nights that’ll soon be upon us. They’re just as breathable and light as Aden and Anais’ existing range, but the wool is a more durable than cotton, so they might be more expensive, but you’ll definitely get your money’s worth.


· Tom had a rare weekend off! As it was last minute we couldn’t plan to go away, but we made the most of chilling as a trio with a walk around our local aquadrome and then a trip into London to find Christmas. Yes, yes, I know. It’s only September – but there were some Christmas trees in an advert on the telly and we decided the time had come to visit Harrods and Selfridges. Both had Christmas areas in place, glittering their magic. Don’t worry, we didn’t buy anything and we’re not listening to Christmas songs yet. We like Halloween to be out of the way first – in fact, we usually start singing along to the classics once Oxford Streets lights have been switched on. Although, saying that – I’ve been listening to Christmas carols for the last month while writing Christmas With Billy and Me. Well, I had to get into the mood!!


· Tom was thrilled when (whilst Christmas hunting in Selfridges) we stopped off at Lola’s Cupcake bakery and found that they did a vegan cupcake… not only was it dairy free, but it clearly tasted amazing. He didn’t offer me a single bite! The cheek of it.


· But better than any of that… Whilst in Selfridges (AGAIN – I have a lot of love for that shop this week) we came across a stall making up personalised Nutella jars!!!! For those who don’t know, I’m totally obsessed with Nutella (and Ferrero Rocher), so it’s not too surprising that I got rather excited. Obviously I got a jar. I would say I’m keeping it closed as it looks so pretty with my name on, but I can’t promise that. I’m already thinking about cracking it open and diving in with a teaspoon… What?! Don’t pretend you don’t do the same!


Have a lovely week!

Gi. Xx

22 September


Mummy-Guilt Slaps Me In The Face…

A few weeks ago I was hit with my first dose of mummy-guilt. Actually, I think I was hit with it as soon as Buzz was born, I just know what it’s referred to as now. A teacher at drama school once told me of her own experiences of motherhood, and said, ‘You feel guilty from the moment your child is born, and that feeling never leaves you’. I’m now starting to understand what she meant.

Like many mums, I’ve had to make the difficult decision about going back to work… although, even as I write that, I find myself asking, ‘Did I ever actually stop working?’ I wouldn’t call mummyhood a walk in the park – it’s flipping tough. So perhaps I should rephrase that and say I needed to make a hard decision about going back to what I get paid to do (rather than voluntarily getting pooped and puked on daily just for fun). And that for me, is writing. Books really don’t write themselves, so without time spent at my computer there’s no way I’d make my approaching deadlines. But what to do about Buzz, I wondered. I knew I’d be able to do some writing in the evenings when he’s in bed, but seeing as his daytime naps only last 30minutes each time, I needed to come up with another plan of action. A plan involving Tom’s wonderful mum!




Once we’d come up with the idea for Nanny Fletcher to look after Buzz two/three days a week I initially felt relieved that I’d be able to meet my deadlines. But, once that feeling subsided (and I received a couple of work based emails) reality hit and I was left feeling upset, worried and guilty. Upset that I wouldn’t be spending every waking minute with my little boy now that he’s started laughing and giggling (he’s so much more fun than when he was a screaming newborn), worried that I was doing the right thing about going back to work (I call it work – I’m at home in my PJs, living in my imagination), and then guilty that Buzz wouldn’t be with his mummy. I felt like I was failing him in a way. Like I’d brought him into this world and was then abandoning him for a few days a week… Needless to say I had a good cry and text a few mummy friends of mine who I know have been in the same situation. That’s when I realised it’s okay to be apart for your baby and get on with doing things that pay the bills AND MAKE YOU HAPPY - it’s even okay to feel like you NEED time away from your baby (although, I’m not quite there yet).

Life is about making situations work so that everyone involved is happy and content. It’s also important to look at the positives in any given scenario – so, in my case, I have an amazing baby AND an awesome job which gives me the flexibility to be around said amazing baby. I know Buzz is with someone who loves him a huge amount and who I trust. I also know that I’m going to thoroughly enjoy writing over the next few months and that all the new emotions and feelings I’ve experienced in the past few months will undoubtedly end up inspiring some of what I’m writing.

This week was the first official week of our new set up and I can safely say that the best bit of my day is seeing the look on Buzz’s face when I walk back into the room after a few hours in my office. It’s honestly priceless and fills me with unless amounts of love. It’s wonderful to know that he’s thrilled to have me back, but that my absence didn’t make him miserable – he’s VERY well behaved for his nanny!

Also this week…

· Buzz has moved into his own room. Waaaaaaaah! Sad times. He’s six months now and getting too big for his crib – so the move made sense. It’s odd not having him in with us at nighttime, but we wander in several times a night to check he’s okay AND have his monitor on full volume… even though he’s only next door.

· Rather excitedly, Buzz has learnt to roll over! The start of this was when we went into his room one night and saw him sleeping on his side. I total freaked out after having it drummed into us early on that he HAD to sleep on his back. The next day, while playing on his mat, he rolled onto his side and then carried on going. He’s got quicker and quicker at it, too. It’s amazing to watch and I haven’t got bored of whooping every time he does it yet.

Right, once again I’m off to lock myself away in my office and write Christmas With Billy and Me (it’s almost finished) and make some more vlogs for YouTube – I’m blooming loving my vlogging experience.




Big love to you all!

Gi. Xx

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